2007/02/14 Do not cross the Line

Long time since I didnt update this *blog*, and as I have things to say, it's time to publish another article.

To figure out that the world may not be as simple as I wanted it to be, to figure out that people need less help than I do, and to figure out that I lost, in spite of all my efforts, people I loved. Things did just changed, maybe not like I wished it to. Some people have changed, but keeps waiting me to be by their side. Rules changed too. I'll be probably more cynical for some, more agressive for other, and the eternal friend of the last.
I'll try too to be less dumb than I had been. The break-out with Calou had hurt me enough so I won't let this kind of thing start over again. Most of us lived love deceptions that hurt them. I didnt thought I could feel this pain like 7 months after this breakout.

I turn this page off, with or without your agreement, with or without their. I need to, I do it for me, for what I am, for what I wanna be. I'm doing this for those I wanna help, those I help and those that I will help. I cant live in the past forever, regretting those things that I lost, or not. I dont want to keep thinking about those things that always lead me to tears. I lost too much in a too short time. This is not a *goodbye*, this is a *good-bye* to my past life, which is now stored in photo-albums, covered with dusts, and in a tally, that will probably never be restored. I'm wearing too much bitterness in me to forgive, to forget, or to ignore what has been done to me.

Everything has an end, whatever they are good or not.

Here starts another page...